Response: Morning Flower

Sunrise Roadshow Era (#002)
January 20th, 2021

The buildup to "Morning Flower" was by far one of my longest, most stressful releases. I wrote the song a year ago as of January 6th, when it was still called "Flower Call."

It's the most important piece of Sunrise Roadshow. It's always been intended as being the biggest release, even at one point being a titular track as "Forthcoming."

It's surreal actually seeing this song released... seeing people enjoy it. I honestly never thought for the longest time that it would see the light of day, that it'd only be heard by those I sent it to — now, it's already been listened to by so many people and the fact that there's people enjoying now feels like a pipe dream.

I wrote this song about my struggles prior to "Breathing Tomorrow." At that time, I constantly felt like I was "battling the system" — always felt like the fact I wasn't a prodigal musician from youth meant that I was going to wash up nowhere, without ever having so much as peaked. There was always this constant lingering voice in my mind telling me that I was already too old for this, that if I kept going I would be wasting my youth, fearing that soon I would be out of time.

Regardless of that, I came to terms with the idea that my ambitions were always going to be over-the-top or sometimes downright impossible, but I always kept telling myself that it would be worth the work in the end for as long as I felt I could believe it.

"A song about the uncertain reward of your efforts."

Always know that regardless of what you're told, the value of the outcome from your effort and work can only ever be decided by you. Never let others decide your worth.

Thank you all for your support over the last year, and please look forward to the next release.

lyrics

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I just want to know
Is this all you have before I go
It's crazy and sure I'm uncertain
But the places I want to be are worth it

How long do I have (I'm going)
How long will it take (I'm trying)
I just want the time and the pain that it needs to pay off
At the end

Could I be trying too hard
As I fall in my dreams
But again I'll say "I'll stand again,"
Before my time is up

How long do I have (I'm going)
How long will it take (I'm trying)
I just want the time and the pain that it needs to pay off
In the end

How long will I have (I'm running)
How long can I take (I'm trying)
After all my life can only last so long
I'll be okay, hey